Friends ?

I used to have 3 closest friends but now, I had only one ... Now I realized that one of them are very selfish and self-centered ... If there's any benefits, the person cater to his or her loved's ones ... When they need help, they are seeking me for help .. And I helped them ... So tell me, what is the meaning of friend ? The person is too smart and cunning .. I don't know why when I see the person today, I can feel the hatred in my eyes on the person .. When did I start to hate my best friend ? I'm the one who helped them when they are in deep trouble .. When they are badmouthing other people, why am I the one who are responsible ? The person acts very well in front of us .. Act like an innocent and dumb person but finally, I noticed that the person is actually a very smart person .. The person controls his or her beloved one .. During the month of October, when all of us were put incharge on an event, some problems occur and the person starts to scold and mumbling to me and telling me that one of our group member is wrong and the person want me to settle it ... And I helped the person to settle it fair and square .. End up a period, one of our group member avoided me everytime he sees me passing by .. All because of ? It's all because of the person .. Why am I so stupid ? Why should I trust the person ? Everytime, whenever any problems occur, I would be the one who helped the person and bare all the burdens on my shoulders ? Now I know that FRIENDS ARE MEANT TO BE YOUR ENEMY !

Make It Happen =(

I had been waiting for so long for this dodgeball league competition since the month of January. Today ( 17/6/2009 ) , I turned the whole game upside down. I had brought humiliation to myself and my own team. I shouldn't had played at first because my team won the first game without me. Hence, the rest of the game, I should appoint MING to replace me. Full of regret and impaired with what I had done tonight. I'm still asking myself thoroughly after my game, am I a good leader ? That would be a NO for that question because I had lead my team to a wrong path of the game today. My seniors were energetic during the game and played very well indeed. We lost to them 2-3 overally. Ultimately, I think that maybe my seniors knew that I was injured and when the game started I was badly attacked by the seniors. My right wrist is getting worst and worst. Eventually, I'm proud with all my teammates because they put up a great fight against the seniors and they had proven to the seniors that HYENAS X exist because of the team spirit and teamwork that all of us had shown today during the league game against them. How am I gonna sleep tonight ? I still wandering aimlessly ... My beloved one are having breaks till next week. Sounded kinda envy on her but I had no choice and still need to attend classes everyday as usual. Assignments had to be hand in every friday and works had to be done in class. Well, Miss Thava is the best ever ENGLISH lecturer I ever met in my college. She uses all knowledge that she knows to help me in my assignments. Thus, millions of thank you and appreciation for her. Being a tough person aint easy, hardwork had to be done to achieve our own respective goals in our life. It's getting late and it's time for me to go to bed. Good night , Amanda , lotsa love =)